FRIENDS AND CANDLES
friends and candles
Inviting me to shed the bothers of my mind
To be with peace
Safe from disquiet images
Of the encircling world.
And in our ease
pleasant thoughts and tales
With hope and gentle animation.
So much your own person
And such humility
strokes and brilliant colours
Elegant with the secret of knowing
Wise unfaltering willow
Agelessly at peace with man’s universal fate
And a smile that breaks
an innocent sunrise
a summer’s morning.
At the edges of my world
I catch him watching
Mulling lonely thoughts
he turns and pales into the grey.
Highlights of a warm and amber evening
Gleam yellow bright.
You left me thoughts that warm
My coldest days.
Your leaving is the longest thing I’ve wept
Now I’ve wept it dead
There’s only left
The soft remembrances.
You found me
Living happiness and planning dreams.
Hand on my arm
You bid me stay awhile.
Your smile was strong
And for a time we played a light flirtation
Before I turned about my dreams.
As I embarked
Your smile and touch remained
For when I stepped away you pressed your love
Into my hand and bid me
Hold it gently all the way to Samarkand
And home again
My days were joyful
As I bounced along
Each thought, each view was coloured
With your presence.
The Thames reflected back your smile.
The streets of London
Sang the wildest harmony to counterpoint
The sweetness of my agony
Expecting word from you.
And then word came
Of course it came;
Your writing strong and vital as your touch.
There is a spot on Cheyne Walk
That I call paradise;
That’s where I read the first
Of all your love
That’s where the street is stained
With one great shining tear
My letters back were light
With joy of growing expectation.
And tho’ your mail was sure
I’d entertain disaster fantasies
You followed me to Regensburg and Zell Am See
Bukhara, Tashkent, Samarkand
Galway, Chelsea, Liverpool
And finally the road turned back
Turned back again,
Turned back to you.
The five day trip was all on edge
One long preoccupation.
Too much to see you standing there.
They made us wait so long to disembark.
Your arms your eyes your
Swept aside all fantasies and dreams.
And thus a smiling idyll
As we climbed our alpine meadow
Intent upon perfection’s height - love's consummation.
Beside a freshening glacial stream
And played on our delight
With each mountain flower the fullness
Of our long awaited spring.
The sun was ours and ours
The moon we watched until the rise of dawn
Urged us to happy sleep.
Our busy days were lit with love;
Were ours to build and dream and celebrate.
I cheered the mountain and the glacier
And the freshening stream
At times with worry in your eyes
I’d find you gazing at the glacier
nature is our friend,”
Months were spent with every morning fresher
Than the alpine dew
And every evening warm
And happy on our mountainside.
One night my dreams were troubled
And the air seemed cold.
I woke at dawn with stabbing pains of fear.
The early sun
Half hidden by a bank of clouds
Marked where the glacier had broken
while we’d slept
Had swept you from my side.
I haven’t seen you since.
And tho’ I’ve searched
I always knew the glacier
Had truly taken you
Along each painful step
That took me down the mountain
The stream no longer freshened to the thirst
And set my body quivering.
Between each stride
I felt for life
Within the ghost, the cold remains of spirit
That had soaked the sun for months;
The spirit was a wisp of hopelessness.
Finally I reached the bottom
The very bottom.
I let the fog of months roll past
Living only of my pain.
The seasons turned unnoticed in the shadowed quiet
Of my empty valley.
The passing seasons
now have grown to years.
The fog is rare.
The sun is usually warming.
Now often in the quiet of an evening
And see a glint of sunset
On our mountainside.
le 21 février
Tristesse sur ton visage
le gris des teintes subtiles,
Se marient en douceur
Le rire joyeux,
Et manque de coeur autour,
Chansons de la sincerité
Tous luisent dans un tranquillité
Reconnaître la vérité
De ce jour au toucher.
mon être frémait
chrysalis of life,
sit on your fingertip
wings still damp,
in the wonder of eternity.
My mind and my spirit are free !